2:31 am

i woke up thinking of you
you're not in my dream
but you're in my mind instead

i woke up not feeling well
my head still aches for it is only 2:31 am

liking you was supposed to be fun
no emotional baggage for 5 months
i promised my heart that

but here they are again
at 2:31 am

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ok, i'm not a good writer this is just an attempt to describe my current state right now (while listening to allure's "last chance"). i promised myself i would only write one entry at the end of the week but as i said in one of my previous entries "if i will write it some other time the effect would be different, my emotions would be different".

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napaka-lonely dito sa bahay namin ngayon. wala ang 'bundle of joy' namin na si chacha, ang pamangkin kong magtatatlong taon na, umuwi kasi sila ng probinsya. wala ang usual na "ate shady" na pagbati sa'kin tuwing pagdating ko galing school at wala rin ang pangungulit ng 'tion' (playstation) pag asa kwarto ako at nag-aaral. wala rin ang good night kiss at good bye kiss (pagpapasok na ako sa school) ko mula sa kanya. hay parang almost 3 years ago lang ayoko sya dito sa mundo, aaminin ko hindi naging madali ang pagtanggap para sa'kin ng pagdating nya dahil sa hindi iyon inaasahan. pero sabi nga ng daddy ko bumalik ang sigla ng bahay na ito nung dumating sya. lalagay ko sana picture nya dito pero naalala ko nawala yung pics nya kasama ng iba pang files namin noong minsan akong magdownload ako ng napaka-lumang kanta sa Kazaa. a may nakita ako sa friendster ng ate ko...



cute nya no, nagmana sa'kin hehe. miss ko na sya e halos dalawang araw palang sya wala dito hanggang friday pa!

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record: i finished the whole ten stages of Tekken 3 kahapon in 5 mins. and 50 sec. record para sa'kin ito kasi usually 8-9 mins. ko yun tinatapos hehe.