Chinese Astrology

February 2, 1984 - February 18, 1985 (Wood Rat)

"Single Rats will meet somebody during the second half of the year who will later become an important person in your life."

-- from The Philippine Starweek (February 6, 2005)

We will see if it will happen. i don't really believe in astrology and horoscope, time to test it.

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Singleness

"What if Prince Charming had never showed up? Would Snow White have slept in that glass coffin forever? Or would she have eventually woken up, spit out the apple, gotten a job, a health-care package, and a baby from her local neighborhood sperm bank? I couldn't help but wonder: Inside every confident, driven single woman, is there a delicate, fragile princess just waiting to be saved?" - Carrie Bradshaw (Sex in the City)

I told my friend this (or some part of it) and told her that i don't want that to happen to me, be a princess that was never saved. she told me i'm so paranoid about me being single for life and i must admit that i am and i don't hide it. i'm not a girl who has guys lining up just to know me. i never knew anyone who really had a crush on me just the 2 guys back at 4th & 3rd grade. i'm just not the likeable type (i think i've said that for the nth time already) and i don't easily like that guy, what more to love someone...

when i'm in grade school i envisioned myself being alone, i'll have a baby (either by sperm donor or someone i might fall in love with), successful and fulfilled in my chosen field. i don't care if i end up having no husband, i thought, back then, that i would be very happy with that set-up. but now, after many years after that things changed and my thoughts also did. after seeing friends being committed, after feeling that much for another person, after some heartbreaks and joy, i felt that i really want to grow up with someone also.

i'm not rushing things, not as if i really need a boyfriend right now, no, not like that. i believe that there would be a right time for that. basically, i'm happy with my life right now except for some times that you wish someone is there for you (you know what i mean). i'm enjoying life and i'm more carefree now than before (i used to be very problematic), but i also want to be sure that i would not end up alone when i grow old but unfortunately there is no way of knowing. only the future knows.

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Guys with glasses

i saw one of my former crush at the mall earlier, he is lining up to pay at the cashier at kamiseta and is carrying a shapes paperbag. not that he is wanting some girls' stuff but he is lining up for his mom (i assume that the woman he is with is his mom). well that made me admire him just a bit again haha. if he could have been bald (he look better with bald hair) again and wear his glasses again (just like when we were classmates) that could have been a plus . i don't have any news from him and we lost communication when i was robbed last summer because his number is stored in my stolen cellphone. i'll ask my friend if he knows anything about him...

well, anyway lately i've been liking guys with glasses. i don't know why, maybe because it makes them look witty or maybe this is just because of my carlo (of LIP) addiction. but not all guys with glasses... just some haha.